Listening to

Florence + the Machine!

Not Myself

I'm not doing so great. I don't know if it's just the winter, the awful job, the feeling that I'm not doing much that's fulfilling or worthwhile, being far away from most friends and family for too long, or a combination of all of these things, but I'm not in a very good place. I have no motivation, I'm apathetic about most things, but I'm also crying more easily than I should. I'm an easy crier but it's getting to a ridiculous level. I'm not really sure what to do about it, and most days, I just feel stuck and passive, like there isn't anything that can be done about it. D is loving and supportive, but he's also honest with me about it. He asks me a lot if anything is wrong and told me the other day that I just haven't seemed like myself lately. I haven't been happy.

The New Year

This year I will strive to be happier, healthier, and less stressed.

To be happier:
See more plays, movies, concerts
Spend more time with friends
Read and write as much as possible
Start my own business
Make sure my marriage is as happy and strong as it can be

To be healthier:
Sleep more
Stay away from gluten
Take more walks
Spend more time outside

To be less stressed:
Spend less time worrying
Find a job that makes me feel like myself again
Organize and stay organized
Say no to some things
Don't beat myself up for things that are out of my control